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January 18th, 2006
January 8th, 2006
05:33 pm - i feel sick
but on the inside. i keep crying about things. in the past year, year and half-ish i've been the biggest crybaby. it's like i stopped crying for years of my life and then my eye ducts were like FUCK YOU lets be sensitive about every goddamn thing. i haven't been in a good mood all day, i don't know why really. just little things set me off and then collectively make me irritable. i got teary eyed at some commericials today. and NO i am not PMSing i swear.
when im upset i try to hold it in so much. if i start to let a little bit out then EXPLOSION all of my emotions and tears come out and they come out full force. rar. i just don't feel 100% into my life right now. when im down i feel like im never going to get out of it for some reason. like there is nothing that will make me smile.
:`(
love, meg
TIDBIT OF THE DAY: dont give up
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/mice/sad.gif) depressed
Current Music: the beatles- yesterday
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January 5th, 2006
06:57 pm - well hello there
i never update anymore. weird.
things are interesting. break has been fun,
went through new years puked a little but it was worth it. we had alot of fun and it looked like most of the people around us did as well. karen was there, ugh. can we say uncomfortable? it sucks that we've totally fallen away from each other, and i def. feel as if it's less my fault by far. whatever, i guess some friendships weren't made to last..
1 year anniversary with noah. i took him to blue man and got him cologne, he bought me pearls and we ate at wildfire. my new jewelry is lovely and i believe he liked his gifts as well. this is not our technial anniversary but it is our pretty much anniversary. new years eve magic ;-) overall i would say we are doing well together. we fight semi-often which ive never had in a relationship before, that sucks, but neither of us can stay mad very long. so, so far its working. *thumbs up*
1st semester went beautifully i must say. lots of fun smoking some parting new friends ect. but my grades also survived fairly well.
intro to psych A
intro stats & logic C
english 160 A
french 104 B
im satisfied, i worked hard.
as for the present, unfortunately there's been some bad luck in my family/household. shortly after i came home from break and a couple days before xmas some pipes burst upstairs from our townhouse in the middle of the night. it was chaos, we have about $50,000 worth of repairs i guess. the walls, floors, and ceiling is damaged. right now we're living in a hotel suite about 10 min. away across the street from the mall. this situation is not our fault at all so i hope insurance isn't a bitch about things. they said we'll move in in hopefully less then 3 weeks.
jimmy, my mom's boyfriend got out of the ICU today. he's been in there since the day after xmas. he has double severe pnemounia and it hit him hard all of a sudden. hes been on the venhilator and under sedation the whole time up til now. its going to be a really hard recovery. hes and alcoholic, heavy smoker, and previous drug user. trust me he really isn't as bad as he sounds, one of the nicest guys i know. he can never smoke or drink again without serious SERIOUS consequences. like i said, it'll be tough.
it's life.
love, meg
TIDBIT OF THE DAY: take life step by step, and then just be grateful you made it one step further without breaking your leg or something.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/mice/happy.gif) hopeful
Current Music: steve miller band- true fine love
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November 7th, 2005
01:46 pm - state of confusion
i know i havent updated in awhile. there has been alot going on but i havent made it here to type. i saw 311 last night at NIU, it was wonderful. it seemed way too short but the playlist was good. they played use of time and flowing *sigh*. so good. i'm on number 3 now. can't wait til 311 concert number 4.
ive been at NIU seeing noah alot lately. i need to start syating in chitown more often. i feel like a loser ditching my own school all the time. last weekend i was at Northern for halloween and that was a blast. i got super wasted and had fun at the parties. it was also really nice because i got to see my dad, stepmom, and keirstyn (lil halfsis. i hadnt seen them since the week before school started, its been too long really.
overall ive been okay i guess. my grades are surviving, i think im doing really well in psych, im pretty sure i can get an A. math sucks, and french is like at a C or even B maybe. it's def. alot more effort than in high school. kristen and i have both gotten into the bad habit of ditching what classes seem "unnecessary". not a good idea. ill do okay though.
this past month has been like a rollercoaster of emotions. sometimes i feel so sure about him, so sure that i know what im doing. and then other times my feelings just get blown to shit. we get in an argument and every step of progress that we've made in our relationship dissolves into painful side comments and of course the same fight we've had since december. it doesn't matter who started it or who is mad at who. im usually the one who ends up crying. im unsure of things. this sucks.
TIDBIT OF THE DAY: be cool go to school
love, meg
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September 14th, 2005
02:54 am
DELETE
i <3 noah
ta-da
love, meg
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August 19th, 2005
09:06 am - i'll be here awhile
so then, it's been a good month since i've last updated. i guess i've been kind of busy lately. it was a great summer, probably the fastest one i've ever experienced. i did many cool and interesting things this summer. i went to hawaii with kristen which was wonderful. everyone should go to maui at some point in their lives, it was beautiful. i went biking down a volcano, snorkeled, and sat by the beach every single day. i wouldnt mind that kind of life.
the 311 concert was on aug 11th and WOW. just WOW. they are so amazing. i know its dorky but they are just a great band live and on cd's. i went with noah kristen steve h. tom n. and campos. i do believe everyone was pretty fucked up at that show, let's just say we smoked more than a little. awesome show though, northerly island was a nice outdoor venue too.
right now i am at school, uic, and moved into my dorm room. it decently spacious and fairly decorated. there are still a ton of things i forgot at home or need to buy. ah well, i'll do it later. i can live for now. school actually starts on monday so i have some time on my hands to party/explore the city. i've already done a bit of both. noah helped me move in yesterday and stayed around for a while afterwards. he's coming down on friday and i believe spending the night. hoorah
goodtimes
love, meg
TIDBIT OF THE DAY: don't drink too much ur first night away from home
Current Mood: happy
Current Music: incredibles theme song
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July 14th, 2005
09:37 pm - quickie before i go out
so lots of things have been going on lately, kind of at least.
noah and i had our 6month anniversary which was lovely and romantic and both our families just happened to be out of town, score. right now he's celebrating his 21st bday in las vegas, how classic. besides that there has been work, a little bit of it, not too much. also i have done alot of dorm room shopping and let me tell you i'm excited. kristen and mine's dorm is going to be the best ever.
what else have i done...
had my little sis's 4 yr. old bday party. family time woop woop. i've spent a fair amount of time by the pool too. in a couple weeks i leave for hawaii which is extremely exciting. i've been doing a lot of research online for my dell dj to which i am still not sure how i'm paying for, and my laptop.
but now it's time to go out.
love, meg
TIDBIT OF THE DAY: you know you've been summer-fied when breakfast and lunch become one meal... usually around 2 p.m.
Current Mood: hopeful
Current Music: korn- good god (life is peachy)
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June 18th, 2005
11:10 pm - FL is great but i miss the nightlife at home..
 You Are Right Brained In LoveBit of a drama queen Peacemaker, first to end a fight Good at thinking up creative dates Tend to fall in love and get hurt easily Going with your gut instead of your head Emphathetic and caring, sometimes to a fault Good at recognizing patterns in relationships Been in love many times, perhaps too many to count Wildly passionate and intense when falling in love Spontaneous with relationships, going with the flow Overly visual - can play back past dates like movies in your mind Roses, love poems, and stuffed animals are a good start to winning your heart
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June 17th, 2005
12:37 am - the time is now, the walrus said..
WELL many things have happened since the last post... as it always is. went to prom, that was lots of fun, minus the scene making by others, which was mostly entertainment by noah and i. i felt i looked good, noah looked great, all the others looked wonderful. the night was full of kisses and friends and dancing and laughing. hooray for that i say. even the boat ended up quite romantic. the next day we did not end up going to the Dunes... which i would still like to do at some point this summer... but instead got semi drunk/buzzed and took the train to the city. we got POURED on and ended up at the shed aquarium. ahh the memories.. but yes, saw lords of dogtown (pretty decent), and then dun da da dun!! graduated the next day.
so i am officially now and forever an alumni of RMHS, and no longer any type of student. fuck yeah. went to UIC 2-day orientation and picked out my classes and stuff. got my U-ID card w/ pic on (now i feel even more like a college student. my classes are english 60, algebra 18, french 103, and psychology 101. in total i have 16 hours my first semester. not bad.
at this exact moment i am in florida typing away as my little cousin, who is now a few inches taller than me, watches viva la bam. florida is great, i miss it terribly. went to the beach the other day, that is what i truely miss the most, besides my family of course. pretty white sand, the calming sound of the waves, the plethra of new and intersting people, the hot and oh-so-tanning sun. *sigh*
i love the city and thank jesus lake michigan is right there. but as anyone who has been to the lake compared with the ocean the two are worlds away. i must live somewhere like that when i grow up, there's no way around it. it's what i love. the warmth the beach, i hate the below freezing whether that surrounds me approx. 6months out of the year. blah.
i heart summer.
TIDBIT OF THE DAY: there is no sales tax in florida
love, meg
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/mice/angel.gif) good
Current Music: hendrix- love and confusion
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June 1st, 2005
06:22 pm - 1-2-3 GO!
almost done almost done! hooray for almost done. i know i haven't written here in a long while but i've been too caught up in enjoying my life. there has been a lot going on. many prom errands and last minute assignments. grades are done now, i feel almost dorky looking forward to getting my report card. i know what my "bad" class grade is, but i want to see what my overall GPA is, not like it matters though.
these are the days when i go to school for a few hours, listen in on assemblies, and soak up the sun before i got out at night. i have already experienced plenty of awards ceremonies this week and have not yet finished them off. i actually do feel a little bit special. i walk around the school and see my picture in various places for poetry awards (i know surprising) or photo. projects. i see my name on lists in the hallways and have had to dress up various nights this week. i know it's mostly because i am a senior and somehow that makes me important... even though almost all high schoolers end up seniors... but either way i am still taking it in in an appriciative manner. honestly, i never win anything. this has been my year of achievement!
tahahahaha
prom is coming and i am very excited, don't get me wrong, i just have that little bad feeling in the pit of stomach. not good. i had the same little bad feeling last year and that turned into a chaotic mess. *shivers* unpleasent memories for the most part. i pray this year will be better. stupid bad feeling, GO AWAY! different group different people different guy different dress
this will be a good time.
gottago!
love, meg
TIDBIT OF THE DAY: the L-word is dangerous, use it with care
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/mice/nerdy.gif) accomplished
Current Music: do-do-do-do-do (doug theme song in head)
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May 17th, 2005
07:19 pm - on the rare occasions you try to assert yourself you're cute and akward, but highly effective
^^i think that's pretty much very true^^
(Submissive Extroverted Concrete Feeler)
You are a HEALER (SECF)— caring, good with people, and patient. You are completely selfless and full of love. As a concrete feeler, you do well with your emotions, which are very strong. You understand and appreciate *why* you feel the way you do, and for the most part you're at peace with yourself.
Suffering in the world really pisses you off.
In relationships, it's easy for you to get hurt. Avoid all kinds of dominant (D***) people, *especially* in dating or marriage. You are a motherly figure, even if you're a guy. If you're a girl, make sure you're a mom some day. The world's children need people like you.
On the rare occasions when you try to assert yourself, you're cute and awkward, but highly effective.
Compared to 14,675,303 other test takers...
43% are more Submissive than you.
36% are more Dominant than you.
21% are just as Submissive as you.
52% are more Introverted than you.
30% are more Extroverted than you.
18% are just as Extroverted as you.
55% are more Abstract than you.
25% are more Concrete than you.
20% are just as Concrete as you.
72% are more Thinking than you.
16% are more Feeling than you.
12% are just as Feeling as you.
love, meg
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/mice/sleepy.gif) relaxed
Current Music: gdead-casey jones (greatest hits)
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May 16th, 2005
06:18 pm - quizzy quiz quiz
Your dating personality profile:
Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate.
Religious - Faith matters to you. It is the foundation that you build your life upon. You trust that God has a plan for you.
Big-Hearted - You are a kind and caring person. Your warmth is inviting, and your heart is a wellspring of love. | Your date match profile:
Outgoing - Shy and timid people are not who you are after. You need someone with a vibrant personality to breathe life into a relationship.
Practical - You are drawn to people who are sensible and smart. Flashy, materialistic people turn you off. You appreciate the simpler side of living.
Romantic - You need someone with a traditional understanding of romance. A true romantic is a must-have in any potential date. | Your Top Ten Traits
1. Liberal
2. Religious
3. Big-Hearted
4. Romantic
5. Practical
6. Athletic
7. Adventurous
8. Outgoing
9. Funny
10. Sensual
| Your Top Ten Match Traits
1. Outgoing
2. Practical
3. Romantic
4. Religious
5. Adventurous
6. Traditional
7. Funny
8. Sensual
9. Athletic
10. Big-Hearted
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Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/mice/worried.gif) okay
Current Music: RHCP- me & my friends (what hits?!)
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May 15th, 2005
11:32 pm - i never update anymore
i just dont have the time. doin a little of this, doin a little of that. it's been a good time though. got my a.p. gov test over with last week, thank jesus. also went on a photo field trip to chicago, niiiice. i smoked a lil bit and it was pleasent, hmph, i can't remember how to spell that word... plesent pleasent, whatev.
did a bunch of scholarship stuff tonight, didnt get much accomplished though because just about all of the deadlines have already passed.
got really drunk on friday, first time in a while actually. went to a going away party for an old friend. it was kind of sad, i'm realizing now that just about everyone is going away in a few months though... i guess i should get used to missing people.
summer is around the corner. there is this week, then the week after is finals. after that i consider school OVER. i can't wait not only because i'm in love with summer but also because i HATE high school. well i hate the high school authorities. they took away my effin parking sticker for TWO WEEKS because i was late too much. not only that but they tried to make me razor blade it off, which my household has no regular razor blades, and then pay the extra 5 bucks to get a new one to park for the last few days of school. excuse me? NO THANK YOU. ridiculious, it's like 2weeks until school is out and it's not like i've been cutting every other day. just coming in a minute or two after the bell will have no detramental affect on my high school academic career. they are just nazi bitches.
effin nazi bitches..
damn the man, save the empire
i have about a million things to do before school is out. coaches gifts for both polo and debate and then like 3 different awards ceremonies for academics and sports and such. i have to read 300 more pages of Emma by the 24th, and write a 20 page paper by the 22nd. busy busy busy. at least there is no more worrying about math, i am stuck at a solid D. 65%, no changing it with or without the final pretty much. that also means no studying for that final, score.
on top of things noah is gone to visit friends in minnesota. he'll be back in a week or so. i dont why i'm all sad-ish about this, he's always gone for a week at a time. helllllooooo, college? i guess it's just the fact that i know he is far that gets me all missing him inside. o but when he gets back.. dun dun dunnnnn!
i have a feeling im going to be locked away in my room all next weekend... naughty.
i've been on too long, it is too late, goodbye.
love, meg
TIDBIT OF THE DAY: <<< more like whimper, does someone wanna give me a ride home? *puppy dog eyes + cutesey face*
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/mice/silly.gif) crazy
Current Music: silence
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May 1st, 2005
05:29 pm - hooray for 5 day weekends
yes, that's right, i haven't been to school since last tuesday. of course it's just because we had 2 days off... and then it was senior 'ditch' day (i cheated, i got called out)
so the weekend is now over, i called in sick to work today. i'm way too tired. there has been so much going on over these past few days. tons of stuff for prom, shopping doubletime plus driving all the way to chicago for alterations. then sat. i had my placement tests for UIC, wow those SUCKED. luckily i stole some of my sisters add pills again. don't worry karen i only took one this time lol.
i worked friday too, boo to that. saturday night was youth group stuff with church crazy senior wakeup that required getting up at 5:30 in the morning. ahh. how am i alive right now?
with all that's been going on this long weekend i somehow managed to see a ton of noah. good or bad?
i'm gunna go with pretty much real good. i got a t.v. in my room, score. it makes for much better excuses. plusssss today is our anniversary. nuts right? nuts.
4 months (ish, minus technicalities). in the middle of summer that'll be like half a year. wwwwwhattttt??? it feels like forever and no time both. woah is all i say to that.
woah.
i haven't touched my homework. i am 148% ready for summer.
i suppose i'll go start digging into that now...
love, meg
TIDBIT OF THE DAY: being sweated on isn't as bad as one would think
Current Mood: exhausted
Current Music: ---
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April 19th, 2005
09:57 pm - got some cool new info
my hearts pounding for whatever reason
i feel like i'm going to throw up a little
maybe cry
no i won't cry.
love, meg
TIDBIT OF THE DAY: betrayal is a bitch
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/mice/stressed.gif) disgusted
Current Music: 311-six (grassroots)
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April 7th, 2005
01:03 am - future
again, i am procrastinating. o well.
i am sooo thrilled for the future it is ridiculious. not even like a certain part of the future. the future as a whole, everything.
i'm excited to go to prom, for it to be summer, for roadtrips with my friends
i'm excited to start school, to live in the city, to party every weekend
i'm excited to have my own house, babies, a really cool job
i'm even excited to retire.
i feel like i want it all to happen now, i want to fast forward to the good parts. the little details i just can't wait to plan out.
taking turns driving on the way to BLANK
making new friends in my BLANK class
decorating my master bathroom
finding a warm place to just hang out at till i die
i'm crazy
love, meg
TIDBIT OF THE DAY: sometimes i have difficulty taking things one step at a time
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/mice/bouncy.gif) excited
Current Music: mest- mother's prayer
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April 4th, 2005
03:25 am - there's something about a guy who makes you think
i don't even know what to write really.
i'm just so content with my life right now.
like, where in the world have the past 3months gone?
things are flying by, and i love it.
god, 3months with him, it doesnt seem like it's been that long right?
tonight will be the first night in days that i'm sleeping in my own bed.
and alone for that matter.
i think wednesday was the last night in my bed...
but anyways, i'm quite excited to have a comfortable and normal (for the most part, it's pretty late) night's rest.
i'm actually a bit saddened to be sleeping alone though.
i guess i just get too used to it.
arms wrapped around you. kisses.
it's delightful. comforting.
*sigh*
i'm so corny.
he's just so different than any other guy i've been with.
i love that.
it's an invigorating change of pace be with someone upbeat and confident.
i feel myself getting so attatched, every so often i get a glimpse of myself and it makes me nervous.
there's not anything to be nervous about though, silly butterflies.
i'm not usually gushy, for some reason right now seems an acceptable time to gush. i feel like i've been holding back a lot on this part of my life in my lj.
not purposely really, i just... i don't know really.
i don't want to sound like i'm bragging, i'm not, i'm just expressing how i feel.
and this is something relatively private in my life, ergo i just don't talk much about him.
i was reading someone's journal today though and i guess... idk... i guess reading it just finally made me feel okay to talk about things more openly. they sounded fairly happy with their love life and... idk, maybe i was subconsiously still holding back to try to keep the playing field even? that makes no sense really but i can't think of any better way to say what i'm thinking. i wanted us to be at the same level of happiness, i guess i almost felt bad by being this happy again? i'm probably digging too deeply into my own thoughts here.
i don't like friends fighting, especially when i understand both sides of the story. i just want everything to be okay, peaceful. being stubborn won't get anybody anywhere, compromise is what i say. but i shouldn't be giving advice unasked for, i'll just hope for the best there i suppose.
WOW this is a long entry and a big procrastination on my part. i still have a paper and a half to write! i can't even say it's the last night of spring break, it's morning time. ah well, c'est la vie.
love, meg
TIDBIT OF THE DAY: the glass is half full
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/mice/loved.gif) mushy
Current Music: it's too late for music
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March 31st, 2005
01:33 am - yes i did have 1.5 energy drinks tonight. if u read all this i am proud
Name: meg
Birth date: march 25th, just recently!
Current Location: rm
Eye Color: brown
Hair Color: dark brown but i guess kind of red/purplely now
Height: 5'2", although i thought i was almost 5'4" for the longest time
Righty or Lefty: Righty
Zodiac Sign: aries, although i dont think i act much like my sign
Your heritage: Swedish and i'm gunna go with cuban jamaican gypsy...?
The shoes you wore today: work shoes (ew) and then purple and black checkered vans (like always)
Your weakness: girls whats ur weakness, men! --song. but probably compliments andddd anything fun. like fun as in probably shouldn't be doing it but still am cuz...it's fun yeah... lol
Your fears: being alone, dark creepiness, natural disasters (there's no stopping them!), losing someone i love...drunken zombie girls who have firey eyes and try to fight with ur car! lol
Your perfect pizza: cheese i suppose, i like mushroom and sausage too though
Your most overused phrase: awesome, psh, nice, i say 'so' and 'um' alot...
Your thoughts first waking up: i start doing the math on how many minutes more i can sleep before having to shower
Your most missed memory: saying 'i love you' in that special kind of way
Your most missed feelings: i'm comfortable with my feelings as they are
Pepsi or Coke: i guess if i had to choose...coke?
McDonald's or Burger King: mcdonalds, although i like the bk just to change things up sometimes
Single or group dates: single, but group can be fun for sometimes
Adidas or Nike: nike
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: uhh, i don't care. sweet tea
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee: coffee... but frapachinos rock
Smoke: yeahhhh and no. one of those situations
Cuss: yeah but it seems only to be around certain ppl
Sing: sometimes, not for real though
Take a shower everyday: yeah i try. lol
Have a crush(es): yes, a major one. no wait, i'm 'fond' of someone ;-) teehee
Do you think you've been in love: yes, what i considered love at that point in my life
Want to go to college: yep, uic!
Like(d) high school: it's been one of those life shaping experiences. not something i'd want to do again but not something i would want to change.
Want to get married: yes i would like to
Believe in yourself: not usually : / i try though
Get motion sickness: nope
Think you're attractive: meh, i've seen worse i suppose hahaha
Think you're a health freak: that's one big NO
Get along with your parent(s): for the most part
Like thunderstorms: yes!! first storm of spring was today
Play an instrument: not really, i admire those that do though
In the past month have you...
Drank alcohol: yes of course
Done a drug: yes of course
Had Sex: yes of course
Made Out: yes of course
Gone on a date: is this redundant yet? yes
Gone to the mall: uh yessssss
Been dumped: nope
Gone skating: no, never in my life
Made homemade cookies: no, eaten them? yes
Gone skinny dipping: no, unless u count bathtubs... taha
Dyed your hair: yessiree
Ever...
Played a game that required removal of clothing: haha yeah
If so, was it mixed company: would it be any other way?
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: that's just a ridiculious question
Been caught "doing something": hahaha o god yes. TERRIBLE
Been called a tease: mmmm, maybe? i usually follow through though ; )
Gotten beaten up: no way, i'm a tough cookie
Changed who you are to fit in: unknowingly yes, it takes awhile to figure out who u really are though
Age you hope to be married: i'll agree with karen, 27 sounds good
How do you want to die: comfortably and oldly with love all around
What country would you most like to visit: tour europe..italy france etc., want to do some carribbean type places too though
Your type: i don't let my heart be confined to a 'type'
Best eye color: it doesn't matter as long as they're pretty
Best hair color: no preference really...
Short or long hair: as long as it looks good
Best weight: bigger then me... not fat though
Best first date location: somewhere intersting where you could talk and get to know the person
Best first kiss location: a front door step, summer. u know, the perfect goodnight kiss
Number of scars on your body: many little ones. i have a wrist and shin one that are kinda big though
Number of people I could trust with my life: quite a few, im a trusting person
Number of CDs that I own: lots and lots
Number of piercings: 6, i'm no where near done though
Number of tattoos: none yet
Number of things in my past that I regret: shoulda woulda coulda's get you nowhere, live in the present not the past
love, meg
Current Mood: okay
Current Music: ---
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March 29th, 2005
09:12 pm - i stole this from someone
Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, one who calls you back when you hang up on him, one that will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep...wait for the guy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the whole world, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks your just as pretty without makeup on... one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares, and loves being with you and how he's the luckiest guy in the world to have you... The one who turns to his friends and says, "That's her"
awwww right?
not just aw but TRUE
love, meg
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08:01 pm - nightmare
so this morning i woke up rather early and quite distraught. i had one of those dreams that were so real that even after you wake up you're sure that it happened. i don't recall specific details but i do remember the gist of it. i cheated on him with the worst person in the world to cheat with. i don't remember why i had done it, in my dream i know i was completely sober. the second after i cheated i felt this overwhelming guilt and could not control myself i felt so terribly awful. i was still in this pit of despair when i started to realize i was dreaming. i finally woke myself up. when i woke up i realized that i was almost crying and it still took me a good 3 or 4 minutes to see that it was just a dream. i just could not get rid of those horrifying emotions. i went back to sleep about 10 minutes later, remembering that i had not really done anything wrong.
weird
love, meg
TIDBIT OF THE DAY: i could use a nap
Current Mood: bored
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